heart

In search of a dream.
To say that what I feel at times is overwhelming is an understatement. Without exaggeration -I often sense as if I can glimpse the true nature of something greater/a force beyond the here and now. The glimpse/a window into the infinite allows me to: understand the power of my passion; feel the depth of my emotional spectrum; seek my purpose; and it blesses me with the need to reach out to broken spirits.
I accept both the benefits and risks to having this awareness- namely the risks related to my vulnerability regarding relationships. The greater my compassion, the more sensitive I become. It is an internal struggle and it perpetuates a fear that my love will be misinterpreted, unguided, and/or taken for granted...
I do believe that God puts people in my path for a reason -some stick and some don't. Those who stick -impact me in a number of ways and despite the hurt involved -I have faith that the lessons learned are worth my struggle. I have been inexplicably linked to/spiritually connected with a handful of people, yet most of them are no longer in my life. These spirits pop in for a few days/weeks/months/rarely years to teach me more about myself and the true nature of the way this life works.
It has been an honor to live a life filled with so many blessings/to have a heart so open. One thing is for sure -my heart's search is not over and I hope it never is. After all -this life is definitely more about the journey than the destination.
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Tell your heart that the fear of suffering is worse than the suffering itself. And no heart has ever suffered when it goes in search of its dream. -paulo coelho
Wherever you go, go with all your heart. -confucius
My mind tells me to give up, but my heart won't let me. -unknown