In search of a dream.
To say that what I feel at times is overwhelming is an understatement. Without exaggeration -I often sense as if I can glimpse the true nature of something greater/a force beyond the here and now. The glimpse/a window into the infinite allows me to: understand the power of my passion; feel the depth of my emotional spectrum; seek my purpose; and it blesses me with the need to reach out to broken spirits.
I accept both the benefits and risks to having this awareness- namely the risks related to my vulnerability regarding relationships. The greater my compassion, the more sensitive I become. It is an internal struggle and it perpetuates a fear that my love will be misinterpreted, unguided, and/or taken for granted...
I do believe that God puts people in my path for a reason -some stick and some don't. Those who stick -impact me in a number of ways and despite the hurt involved -I have faith that the lessons learned are worth my struggle. I have been inexplicably linked to/spiritually connected with a handful of people, yet most of them are no longer in my life. These spirits pop in for a few days/weeks/months/rarely years to teach me more about myself and the true nature of the way this life works.
It has been an honor to live a life filled with so many blessings/to have a heart so open. One thing is for sure -my heart's search is not over and I hope it never is. After all -this life is definitely more about the journey than the destination.
Tell your heart that the fear of suffering is worse than the suffering itself. And no heart has ever suffered when it goes in search of its dream. -paulo coelho
Wherever you go, go with all your heart. -confucius
My mind tells me to give up, but my heart won't let me. -unknown