the past few months have been an awakening. my feelers are up and out with an alertness unlike anything i’ve felt. that word “transformation” resonates. it reminds me of this quote from wendell holmes, “one’s mind once stretched by a new idea, never regains its original dimensions...” it’s the same for my heart. what’s my choice? with a new awareness, i can choose… to keep the mind/heart open; to dive into the love of it all; to feel it with every cell of my being; to swim in it. that’s my choice. it’s a freedom and a responsibility. my obligation is to honor the passion wherever it leads.


this week has been a space week. a few weeks back, i listened to this podcast sharing about movies we love with “contact” being one of them and after watching it, i understood why. it speaks to our need for scientific evidence and fact to explain our world, then acknowledges that there are certain things we have to surrender to. it’s ultimately about faith and the spirit of exploration/discovery_both within and beyond. there’s a universe inside of us… question is how do we access it? where’s the plug in? reality check/ it’s not instant and once tapped, it takes time to foster it. unless we choose to go back to sleep?

“I had an experience. I can't prove it. I can't even explain it, but everything that I know as a human being, everything that I am tells me that it was real! I was given something wonderful, something that changed me forever_a vision of the universe, that tells us how tiny, insignificant, rare, and precious we all are. A vision that tells us that we belong to something that is greater then ourselves; that we are not alone. I wish I could share that. I wish, that everyone, if only for one moment, could feel... that awe, and humility, and hope.” —contact/jodie foster


the other space week movie was “interstellar”… mind blowing encouraging us to wonder about our place in the stars. the film challenges me to think of this universe in multi-dimension terms. nothing is straight forward. there are forces such as time, gravity, and love/ all beyond our comprehension. there’s a humility to it sparking curiosity and wonder and gratitude.

this is a side note = the other day i was at the central park zoo, where i learned about leaf-cutter ants. it’s incredible the way this network operates with the queen ant at the helm and some serious foraging communication. they’re connecting in multiple ways via chemicals and antennal tapping… poses the questions, “how do we communicate? what’s actually being transmitted/received?”


antennal tapping/feelers up and out. awake.